14At the foot of the mountain, a large crowd was waiting for them. A man came and knelt before Jesus and said,15“Lord, have mercy on my son. He has seizures and suffers terribly. He often falls into the fire or into the water.16So I brought him to your disciples, but they couldn’t heal him.”
17Jesus said, “You faithless and corrupt people! How long must I be with you? How long must I put up with you? Bring the boy here to me.”18Then Jesus rebuked the demon in the boy, and it left him. From that moment the boy was well.
19Afterward the disciples asked Jesus privately, “Why couldn’t we cast out that demon?”
20“You don’t have enough faith,” Jesus told them. “I tell you the truth, if you had faith even as small as a mustard seed, you could say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it would move. Nothing would be impossible.”
“I can’t count the number of times I needed a mustard seed!” “I haven’t seen any mountains moved lately.” My mind is screaming those quotes back at me this morning. I guess I could use a faith boost. I’m telling myself that nothing is impossible if I believe, but right now at this moment, a few things are looking pretty impossible to me.
So I must confess that as I write this I feel like I am looking at a mountain in my life. Maybe two or three mountains. A bit of despair is creeping in. It looks like failure is imminent. What am I to do?
Lord, right now I need a mustard seed. I trust the tiny seed is in my hand and I want to hang on to it with all my might. But then, what good is it? Can it grow in my hand? My white-knuckle holding on right now is getting me nowhere. Ok Lord, what faith I have is yours. I’m letting go and dropping what feels like my last mustard seed into the ground. I’m not going to worry about these mountains any more. You will either grow that seed and move the mountains, or I will fail and perish watching for a sign of your life in this situation, but I’m done trying to dig my own tunnel through these mountains. I’m going to rest now Lord. Beginner’s Online Bible Study *obbs*