20When it was evening, Jesus sat down at the table with the twelve disciples.21While they were eating, he said, “I tell you the truth, one of you will betray me.”

22Greatly distressed, each one asked in turn, “Am I the one, Lord?”

23He replied, “One of you who has just eaten from this bowl with me will betray me.24For the Son of Man must die, as the Scriptures declared long ago. But how terrible it will be for the one who betrays him. It would be far better for that man if he had never been born!”

25Judas, the one who would betray him, also asked, “Rabbi, am I the one?”

And Jesus told him, “You have said it.”

Can you possibly imagine what is going on inside Judas and Jesus at this moment?  Judas has likely seen miracles done at his own hands by using Jesus’ name.  He has surely seen Jesus’ incredible power and love and wisdom.  He had to wonder if Jesus would know his plan but now he is “called out” in front of all his closest companions.  Why did he even ask Jesus “am I the one?”  The moment most have been so intense that his silence was louder than the question would have been. 

In my opinion Judas must have been completely oblivious to the reality of what was happening.  He was blind, and in that blindness committed a horrible atrocity.  Yet that is what sin does.  It blinds us.  When we are swallowed up in our sin we don’t even realize how ridiculous our decisions are.  We don’t see the consequences and we can’t see what we are really doing.  Sin leads to more sin until we do things we never dreamed we were capable of. 

I know this from my own personal experience and if you are honest, you probably can testify to this yourself.

Lord, break the cycle of sin and blindness in my life before I ever again fall to such deep blindness and misery.  Open my eyes to the smallest of sins in my life and help me to “nip them in the bud”.  Take off the blinders of my sins long before once again cause awful pain and misery for myself and more important all those around me.  And Lord, I forgive those who have cause me pain by their sin.  Who am I to hold them bound?  Beginner’s Online Bible Study *obbs*